Heaven just isnt high enough

Listening to good music, drinking good whiskey, feeling infinately better.

Hate being sick, sleeping all the damned time. Now I'm doing better. Bought a bottle of Bushmills blend, and am enjoying it emencely. I wanted Jamesons, but the store was out of the year I wanted. Damn it. Things are going very well. Looking forward to Monday strangely.

Rampway forums close this weekend. *pops down another shot* whoo hoo. No more of that shit. To counter that, Ive opened my own, the Oubliette. Heh. Have fun, dear readers.

We are all creatures of flesh, thus we are all flawed: we are all creatures of spirit, thus we are all perfect.

My mantra

This is rich!

atlpunkchick wrote:
Ok--so you're NOT fully attributing your problems to high school bullying?


What I am saying is this -

High school bullies (or bullies of any grade level) will pick the weakest children to pick on. These children are inevetably those which are predisposed to mental disorder to begin with, often those with learning disabilites or irronically, gifted children. Hounded by years of social ostrasicim and abuse by their peers, the weakest of these will develop full blown mental illnesses from their predisposition due to the continual stress.

Not all bullied kids break seriously or dangerously. But many do. Wether it is giving in to depression, and killing themselves, or giving in to psycosis, and following its mad spiral, it is highly unlikely that without social pressure they would have broken such as they did.

Children with special social needs, with special needs of ANY sort, should NOT be forced into the general population of students. The concept of "mainstreaming" does far more damage to special needs children than anything else ever could.

Bullying is NOT acceptable - it is NOT normal or healthy. Most children who try to stand up to bullies end up getting seriously injured as a result. This applies to all levels of education, not just High School.

If you think just because you "tried to help" that automatically makes you better than the people who just stood by, maybe you should ask some of the people you tried to help. I imagine they saw you as only making things worse. I know thats how I felt about those who were trying to "help" me.

But this isnt a point of view you can ever understand. There is no common frame of refference. You think just because you were an "individual" in HS you were an outcast. I imagine there was some guy or girl who always stood back from the croud, watching you and those around you, envying you - wishing with all their heart they could be you. Consider yourself lucky that wish did not turn to envy and hate, or depression and self loathing.

Note to self

Ok, I am not nearly as bad off as that post made me sound. I was upset, but I am doing allot better now.

Mainly, I am rather pissed off about some things going on on the rampway message board. this one in particular.

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jamesg546 wrote:
strixus wrote:
So they were not the best example. I used it mearly because it was the incedent that most of this generation of students remembers best. And remember something else - the media did everything in their power to cast these children as monsters. It was the only way it could be explained to the general public. But a few of us saw what was happening, looked at each other across classrooms, and nodded sadly, in understanding.

SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is NO EXCUSE WHATSOEVER to murder people... You are sick if you think that someone making fun of you gives you the right to kill them...

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People are too innocent. They want killers to be monsters, things with four eyes and a mouth full of fangs. Evil having a human face is so hard for the average person to accept. Why? I wish i knew.

But I have no trouble accepting evil wearing a human face. There are no devils, not as sunday school taught us. We all are hiding behind masks of flesh. All the devils of the world.