Tengoku wa doko?

So my sleeping patterns are all messed up now. But I feel much much better. Hopefully I will be completely well tomorrow.
daoc:si was being buggy today. Very frustrating. *sighs* Hopefully what I'm about to do now (replacing my drivers) will fix the problem. If not... I'm going to have to kill someone.

For the last few weeks I've been working on Seeing Voices a little at a time. Story is progressing slowly. I hope one day I can find an artist to turn it into a manga. Need to rent/buy Angel Sanctuary.

Worried because I havent seen a friend of mine online in a few days, nor seen him irl. Finals may be eating his life, who knows.

Sleep well everyone.

What Paranoid Conspiracy Theory Are You?
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Yes, it really is 4 am when I am making this post.

I went to sleep at about 10 when I got home from the rampway meeting. Slept till midnight. Woke back up, went back to sleep about one. Woke up again at 3:45. and here I am. I think I am getting sick / am sick, yet again, but I think I can fight it off before my finals Wensday and Saturday.

Nothing is worse than being sick and horny and alone all at the same time. Filed my nails down to points again, painted them white. Had vauge sexual dreams throughout my interupted sleep. Not helping. Not helping at all.

Rise to me
"Rise to me, rise to me,"
the hunters' call, the time is now
for full moon dreams and
the night born fantasies.
The Hunter's Moon, the rutting moon,
phermones lace the icy winds,
calling, taunting, teasing:
the torture of the night.
And I Rise, like all the others,
the Hunters searching for their prey,
prayers of lust in our night songs,
feed the flesh, feed the soul.
And you, my lover, Rise with me,
come hunt the night, the stary sea,
my flesh calls you and you call me,
"Rise to me, rise to me."

The Lament of the Business Student

Today, I had a java presentation.

The web service we were presenting.... didnt work.

The other two groups both had grad students who were professional coders in them. Both of the other groups services worked.

And to top things off, the prof blamed our project not working not on problems with the technology (which it was) but with lack of effort.

I have been insulted, embarased, and verbally abused in front of not only my entire class, but in front of professional programmers brought in to help evaluate us.

I want to curl up into a ball and make the world go away.

Dreams

I'm usually not in the habit of writing my dreams down. I'm not going to this time either.
But sometimes... I feel the need to talk about the subject matters of my dreams.

Ever had a dream where you do something that so disturbs you when you wake up you cant quite get past it?
I mean, sure, ive had some bloody nightmarish dreams, but at least in the dreams im often disturbed by what I'm doing or around.

Last night I wasnt until I woke up.

..... What makes it worse... I knew the person in the dream irl.