.... a wonderful morning message...

It was a Monday, when my lover told me,
"Never pay the Reaper with love only."
What could I say to you except "I love you"
And "I'd give my life for yours."

The first time we made love, I..I wasn't sober.
(and you told me you loved me over, and over)
How can I ever love another, when I miss you every day...

Remember the time we made love in the roses?
(and you took my pictures in all sorts of poses)
How can I ever get over you, when I'd give my life for yours.

My dear,
Its time to say I thank God for you.
I thank God for you in each and every single way.
And I know... I know... I know... I know...its time
To let you know. Time to let you know. Time to
Let you know. Time to sit here and say:

We are the lucky ones, dear...

Lyrics::Lucky - Bif Naked

You're a Jaw Breaker!!!! You tend to be quite
upfront about everything. Some admire you for
this quality, while others often resent you for
it. Although you may act tough, whether you
hate to admit it or not there is some sweetness
inside of you.


Which kind of candy are you?
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Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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What Type of Lunatic are You?
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On a more lighthearted note, I think everyone out there will enjoy this little gem I found on Metafilter this morning.

Hamlet, the Text Adventure

And This joy, which makes me long to be a Japanese academic all over again.

Ping Pong Ball Avalanche Video Footage

Its time I grow back the spine I thought I once had.
Enough of this. I'm tired of kowtowing to my parents, tired of living to their whim. Its time I stand up for myself. It's time I said no to things that I don't want to do, don't have to do, don't need to do, and live how I want to live. No more being guilted. No more being made to feel indebted. No more.
It's time my parents treat me like a human being and not an extention of utility in their lives.
And if they punish me, I will ignore it. If they take from me, I will find other ways to do what I must do. If they throw me out, then I go out. I have a place which will always take me, a person who will always love me.
Its time to stop being a doormatt and be a human being.

create your own visited country map
or write about it on the open travel guide

I am a Conspiracy Nut



Which America Hating Minority Are You?

Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons

One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small,
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all.
Go ask Alice
When she's ten feet tall.

And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you're going to fall,
Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call.
Call Alice
When she was just small.

Just my mood today.

+++ Divide By Cucumber Error. Please Reinstall Universe And Reboot +++

Something came in my email today that I had to share with everyone.

"The Washington Post's Style Invitational once again asked readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing one letter, and supply a new definition."

The few that caught my eye:

Reintarnation: Coming back to life as a hillbilly.
Sarchasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the person who doesn't get it.
Dopeler effect: The tendency of stupid ideas to seem smarter when they come at you rapidly.
Caterpallor (n.): The color you turn after finding half a grub in the fruit you're eating.

And my personal favorite, which I plan on using as often as possible to describe certian people...

Ignoranus: A person who's both stupid and an asshole

Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to me....

So yeah, its offically the day of my birth, 23 years ago today. I woln't offically be born until much later today, well into the afternoon. It was a cold, rainy Tuesday, when Regan was inaugurated into office, and the only red haired baby born at Dekalb Medical Center came screaming into this cold and too bright world with claws so sharp she cut her face within minutes of being born. And now, here I am, 23 years later. Yeah.

Its also Erik's 24th birthday today. Another year spent together, another year together yet to come. May the gods grant me that great blessing, each and every day.

Strangely, I can't sing the song which I always thought I would sing this day. Yes, I only want a few things... but those few things, I have the two which mater the most to me. Others yes, I've had them taken from me, over and over again. But most of the harm in my life I've done to myself.

And let me say how thankful that the few things I want I have.
I'm breathing the air
the air i always breathe
i don't have a lot
but i want someone to share it with me
i really only want a few things
they've all been taken away
what does the next life bring
i just want to feel o.k.
i'm searching forever
for someone or something
i want to be high
and i want someone to love me
i spent 23 years now
trying to get by
other people make it day to day
i still wonder why
i only really had a few things
they've all turned to tears
one tried to kill me
the other kept me
i'm still here
23, God Lives Under Water

So you may have noticed, there is something different. Don't see it? I'll wait a moment and let the slower of you, dear readers, notice that I have changed the layout of the Notes From the Hole substantially. This is, in a way, a birthday thing for me. It is also a begining of the semester thing for me. It is a new year, a new year of life, a new semester of school; time in each to turn over the old leaves of that which was before and that which has come before and expose the new fertile earth of potentiality to the rain of photon like ideas which is the sunlight of a new well, everything.
In a little under or over 40 hours or so, I turn twenty-three.

So I've had every class now, and I've bought all my books.
Wow.
This is going to be an interesting semester.

In state tuition: $1,604.00
Student fees: $376
One semester of reserved parking: $200
Two bags worth of books: $450

Something something something: Priceless

Yeah. Um. Yeah.

So. Semester has offically started.

Had a horrible family fiasco over the weekend, which I'm not going to talk about, and an interesting day yesterday, which I'm not going to talk about either. I see the family thing as just an ending to how bad last week was, with yesterday an indication of how sureal this semester is going to try to be.

I slept till 3:00. Drove to house, then to campus. Cat was happy to see me. She is always happy to see someone who will feed her.

Two classes today, no work this week. First class was at 5:30, and went very well. Second class I am In right now, and it seems to be much better than last semester. Oh yes, this is Finance, btw. I am still doing my grade dispute, but one way or another, I will be in this class, working my hardest.

Tomorrow, three more classes, including the first day of Latin and CIS4980. Which they simply do not seem to have noticed I do not have the pre-req for, Unlike BUSA. Very weird.

I have hump day off, which will be nice, and then two classes thursday.

It looks like its going to be an interesting semester.

Oh yes, since its the begining of the semester, I will be redesigning my front page. And maybe it may match the rest of the site this time.

Honors thesis class registered. On the other hand, droped from my BUSA 4980 class because I lack a passing grade in Finance. No matter that I'm in grade dispute. No matter that I'm taking it this semester. No matter that the other class that requires it (though im not about to point this out) hasnt droped me.

So, I wait. And I wait.

Somewhere at GSU right now, there is a group of IT people in a panic, drenched in sweat, working feavorishly on the GOSOLAR system. Today was the first day of late registration. Within minutes of the system opening, it was obvious something was very, very wrong. Now, the system is down cold. No registration, no payments, not even course searches.

Me, I'm sitting here, half smirking, half looking to punch someone. For you see, while I got all my actuall classes back, with only minimal hastle (read this as: Reload damn it, reload, what do you mean page not found, damned fucking proxy error, bad coders, bad servers, reload damn you reload), I now no longer have my overload in the system, so I am waiting for that to process again. Without my overload, I cannot register for my honors thesis class. Not being registered for it, I cant pay for classes completely.

WOOO FUCKING WHOO.

So yesterday I went through all sorts of shit to get permision for an overload of course hours. Today, I log onto gosolar, and all of my courses are gone.

My payment, made on time, never went through.

I've been disenrolled from everything. Everything. Tomorrow I reregister for everything that I can. If I don't get what I need, then I don't graduate on time.

My life sucks. Why do I even try?

Because I have things I want... though I'm a fool for wanting them.

FISH.BASE.

Lots of Fish.
Wow.

Which Historical Lunatic Are You?
From the fecund loins of Rum and Monkey.

I am saying goodbye to many people tonight. I need to. I am abandoning my old screen name. If you do not hear from me within two weeks with my new one, I am sorry, but you are one of the people I must say goodbye to. Its not your fault. I just needed to get away from it all. Those of you who know what I'm talking about will understand. Those of you who don't, wolnt need to.
I miss you all, I will miss you all. I am sorry, but I just need to go away for a while. I have also changed my livejournal user name. Those of you who know me will know the name when you see it. I will still update here. But please, if I do not contact you, do not contact me.
It is for the best.

When the cold of winter comes
Starless night will cover day
In the veiling of the sun
We will walk in bitter rain
But in dreams
I can hear your name
And in dreams
We will meet again
When the seas and mountains fall
And we come, to end of days
In the dark I hear a call
Calling me there,
I will go there
And back again

Artist: Edward Ross (In Dreams) Lyrics
Song: The Breaking Of The Fellowship Lyrics

And the wheels are turning, turning
For the finger points at me

All's well
But I have not been to Oxford Town
All's well
No I have not been to Oxford Town

Toll the bell
Pay the private eye
All's well
20th century dies

Welcome to 2004. It came in wonderfully, with Kubrick, brei and crackers, a wonderful dinner, and great sex. A wonderful evening spent with Erik. I needed nothing else.